my host experienced

ok so... my friend told me I am being an angel to my guest.
I cant help it, its just me.
I am always trying my best to makes people around me feel comfortable.
so thats what I do... I think I can make it good in hospitality business.

so I was a host for a few days last week to someone whom I know from my Bali trip.
We had such a good time in Bali together with other Couchsurfer.
I let him stayed at my home in consideration that I already know him in Bali, and that I understand that he wont do any harm to me or my family, because I know he is basically a good person.

God... I cant do this.. I cant write it down my dissapointment. this is just not me, I cant complain.
because I made this situation.

ok I have to write it down. I am so dissapointed.
it seems like he doesnt enjoy his time with me, which i dont care.
i try my best to help him in anyway because i realise he is a stranger in a strange city.
i know how he feel, when you lost and need some help.
so helped him bought his ticket, for his next destination after Jakarta.
with a lot of effort, time and money consumed, not to mention the difficulties because of the rain and the traffic jammed in Jakarta.
anyway.... in the end he finally bought his ticket.

well actually, I guess I am fine with that. I mean I dont care anymore whether he wants to use the ticket that we bought with a lot of effort. its his call anyway. its just sucks for me !!

then again, there was this party in one of the couchsurfer's apartment in the central of Jakarta.
I tag him along with me to the party. he had fun, I had fun, we had our own way to satisfied our self at the party.
then he seems like he doing good at the party, and he enjoyed it so much. so i let him stayed there for the night.
ok before that happened, we went through alot of things before getting to the party.
we went to the wrong apartment building, waited too long for the elevator.
after we get to the right building, it turns up the tower is on the other side.
so we had to walk far to the right tower.
sadly, I had to park my bike too far :(

then it was almost 2 oclock in the morning, I felt tired and need to go home, since I found out he still enjoy the party so much, so I let him stay there.
but I was dissapointed, yet he knows that I parked my bike so far, and I will be walking alone and driving alone home. he didnt even care and didnt even bother to offer his companion to the parking lot or even text me a message saying drive safely or let me know when u get home safely.
well I dont expect too much, but that what would a gentlemen  do right?
even though we dont have such a relationship. even all my friends not only guys, they will be worried. I am a girl walking far to the parking lot, and driving alone at 2 am in Jakarta from central to south.
who wouldnt be worried???
I was scared a bit, I was so pissed to him of his carelessness.
I dont blame him, but I was so dissapointed with him.
thank God, there was Chucky and Juan Carlos willing to give me a company to the parking lot.
Thank you Chucky & Juan !!!

from then, in the morning, he finally send me a text asking how am i doing, and he will be looking forward to come back home and have a good rest.
then suddenly I found a news that the road to his next destination has been shut due to some flooding.
I was trying my best to keep him up to date about the situation. several phone calls, several text message. no reply from him. and afterwards there was this short text messages telling that he changed his plan, that he would stay a little bit longer at the apartment and he would come to my place to get his things.
so I answered OK and asked him to letting me know when he would take his things, because I got something else to do, and wont be able to meet him around.

so then, another text message came, he asked me whether I want to join him for a karaoke with the others, I told him I cant.
then he said, he really want to see me again before he is leaving, and he would do anything to do that.
then I said OK, I named the place and time, he said he tried. and suddenly he changed again.
aargghh this guy really sucks !!!
but finally he was coming to my house, and we meet up each other there, and he brought my friend too to accompany him.

he is always looking for some caring and babysit wherever he goes.
such a cry baby !!!

i am sick and tired of being an angel all the time. I know its just me, I just need to give some space for myself.

*sigh* *deepbreath*
i am cool now....

and now I just dont need more shit going on today !!!

Blown me away Monday !!!