Japan

Looking at my pictures when i was in japan so nostalgic.
I can see how happy i was back then.
Perhaps my happiness is right there.
So i am going to search one more time.
Dear God, if this is the sign of Your answer to me.
Please help me to strengthen my will that i really wanted to go there again.
I want to go there again.
Thank You.

I am getting sucks in managing my life

I think i really need to think really carefully of every steps and decission i take for my life.

I hv been playing my life too long and too far.

But witt this experience its a good thing for me to realise that i am not that kind of person.
And i am so glad that i have no interest in doing such things.

I want to put things all together now.

First my decission of my future.
Yes i am going to say yessss for japan.
I hope the path to go there will go smoothly as expected.

And then i want to fix my job.
Its been too long i abandoned my responsibilities.
I feel like i no longer who i am recently.

I guess thats because i am just too tired with my job.
Piles of workss. Undone business

*sigh* i am so going to fix everything from today on.

First thing first. I am going to clean my room and change my bed sheet.
And i am going to make it in real quick and neat.

I have to be who i really am. Who loves neat and clean.

Today i am going to start to become a good person.

And i am going to pray as i should do.

I have to finish all the books i planned to read.

And i am going to be serious of what i am doing from now on.

Next week i will hv my leave and i am going to show my little sister that i love her so much and i want her to see me as her real sister and the good one.

I am going to be Me again.

Happy sunday! !

I am busy but i cant work

Loads and piles of works are waiting for ne on my desk.
And i still couldnt figure out of what to be done first.
Damn i am so reaching my limit.

Mooo genkai desu.

Konna shigoto mo yarita kunai yoooooo.

Yameta hooga ii desuyoooo.

Yamechao kaaaaa

I am a looser

Yeppp i guess i am a looser
Who doesnt deserve this life.
Its such a waste of life.
I am a total looser and total failure.
Nobody stopping me from being a looser and total failure.
I have to help myself.
But i am too tired of helping myself out.
I want somebody to help me out

Please somebody stop me from hating myself.
Because thats how i feel right now.
I hate and disgussed myself to the bone.
I feel sorry for my parents for having such a hard time to have me to this world.

All i want to do is to end this.

I want to end this.

I want to end this.

End this.

My pray

Aku lupa doa pagi ini
Bahkan udah ga pernah berdoa barangkali.
Well gua emang lagi males bgt solat belakangan ini.
Tapi paling enggak gua berdoa atas apa yg gua inginkan.
Brengsek bgt ya gua. Hehe.
Gua msh punya beberapa pending works
Yang gua pengen selesaikan hari ini juga.
No more delay!!!!!

Smoga semua pekerjaan hari ini bisa selesai sesuai dgn harapan gua. Amiiiiiin.

Bismillah.

Job

This is bad i keep telling myself that i hate my job and i should quit it before its too late.
What am i suppose to do?
Should i listen to my head or heart?

This so random. Though its in the middle of the sat night.