How i wish i am a fish in the ocean

I hate my work soooooo much.
I want to quit my job.
But can i be the most selfish person in the whole wide world?
Will i be able to do that?

I want to change my career. What i am doing now it isnt a career. Its just a job, a daily routine. Its a boring life.

What makes me happy?
1. Watching the big blue skies
2. Watching the greeny forest
3. Watching the big deep blue ocean
4. Exploring this universe
5. Capturing every beautiful moment
6. See my mom happy
7. See my dad happy
8. See my big sister and her family happy
9. See my younger sister happy
10. See my younger brother happy
11. Enjoying bird chirping

I am so going to quit my job. Am I?

I am a freak

I guess i am getting drowning with piles of works.
I am a freak who spent the weekend at the office.
As if i dont have a life.

Why cant i living my dream, i have always been a big dreamer.
I always dream big
But i never living in it.
What exactly wrong with me?

I am a freak that i can put myself into.

I hate my job.
But i cant leave it

If i leave it, i will not afford to dive, or paying my brother`s school fee and monthly allowance
And i cant watch bbc knowledge or discovery or nat geo or nhk, my faves tv program.
And i vant pay the electricity billing.

Damn it. To whom should i blame my life with?

I just cant afford this life any longer.

All inside me is angers.

Why am i always feel unhappy? Unsatisfied?

I try not to hate my life.
There are more suffer life than i do have now.

What do i have to do to make me realise it?

I am doomed.